My love of art

I never thought I would one day consider myself an artist or even consider majoring in art.  I grew up know there was always going to be someone better then me at art, so why bother.  This notion changed after therapy.  I started to realize that it was okay to do art, and not be the best at it.  I started thinking about my life in general and realized that I didn't do a lot of things because I knew I wouldn't be the best so why bother trying. Once I said good-bye to this notion all together I was able to enjoy life as it was ment to be enjoyed.  I stopped worrying about being judge and started thinking about everything I had wanted to do, but had never done.  This led me to adding some humor in my Speech for speech team.  Although I didn't completely changed my category I pushed myself to add some humor.  Even though I never went to state I was okay with that. My Senior year in speech i decided to take a giant leap and switch categories to Humorous.  I had always wanted to be in this category. I knew I would probably not go to state because of this, I was okay with that.  Because I wasn't just doing this for myself, I was doing this to prove that I was stronger then trying to be the best.  Plus, I had a speech team to lead that kept falling apart.

You are all probably wondering what this has to do with art?  Well it has a lot to do with art, my senior year I took my first art class, no wait my second one because my Junior year i had to take an intro class.   I ended up excelling wonderfully.  I realized this a way for me to unwind from life and de- stress.

I decided after my second art class to never again let that one fear/ notion hold me back again. when it came to my first year in college meaning this year, I had to change my schedule around.  I ended up adding 2-D art.  This wasn't going to happen at first because i didn't think i was good enough.  I lucked out in getting a wonderful professor who taught me a lot.  This one class gave me the courage to think about what I could do with an art degree.  I know I really don't want to sell art work for a living but i know i want to use art in some shape or form in my life.

this month i stopped journaling in my art book.  It wasn't because I had nothing to put in it, it was because I was and am in J-term. I am taking an Art history class that i love so much.  We studied french art form 1776-1800s.  It has been an amazing class and has made me realize I not only need art in my life, I need art in my life to keep me mentally stable.

This is why i want to be an art teacher for high school kids. I want to be there for them so that if they have problems they can come to me for help.  I want kids to know it is okay to have depression and that sometimes it runs in the family like mine which makes it genetic.  I want kids to stop think and ask for help.  i think i can accomplish this more by being an art teacher then a therapist.